Saturday, April 11, 2009

A game of Tug and War

I started this blog as a means to expressing my journey to launching a successful clothing line while working a full time job and raising two intelligent and loving boys that I am proud to call my sons.

It has now become an accountability that my friends and family have begun to hold me to. Not a day goes by that someone doesn't ask me when I'm going to make my next post. I have been in a creative funk lately which has led to me putting off a lot of things, my blog being one of them.

This past Saturday I took a sewing lesson with someone I admire and am aspiring to mimick talent-wise. It was a great lesson in that it reminded me of how much I love to sew and how relaxing it is for me (even if my attempts at following the circular lines were a bit off). The hours flew by like minutes and before I knew it, I had been there for 4 hours. This lesson reaffirmed the saying of "Do what you love, and the money will come". My current problem is that I have so many ideas, that my own brain has somewhat paralyzed me from being able to do just do something. I spend too much time thinking about what should be the first product, that I now find myself with no product at all. this is far from what I envisioned when I decided to pursue the clothing line with all the passion that I have been suppressing for some time now.

So now I'm left with the task of trying to ignore the part of me that likes to plan every single detail and give the creative side of me the chance to prove that it has everything under control. How do you find a balance of being creative while sensible and sensible but flexible? This lack of balance has begun to affect my sleep, so I know I need to figure it out and soon before I'm too exhausted to think or be creative.

Who knew that being creative would be both a gift and a curse? I know I'm not the first person to go through this and that wallowing in pity only delays the process even further. Somewhere inside me lies the answer, I just have to figure out whether or not my creative or sensible side will be the one to find it.


(Conquering the world, one stylish step at a time)